Life has become very cyclical for me thanks to the three week schedule of my chemo treatments. The first half of each three weeks is a slow descent into fatigue and side effects, where I can concentrate on little outside my physical discomfort. I really wish it were otherwise and I could continue to be creative and productive and forge ahead with the Christmas to-do list. Instead, life is like a blur getting through each day focused on attempting to force down food and beverages. I’ll discuss the food problem in another post, after all, this is a food blog, right? Hah.
Today I’m now entering the second half of my second treatment cycle, and I can begin to feel some mental clarity returning, explaining why I’m able to sit down at this computer and type out a few (possibly fuzzy) words. I hope that along with the return of mental clarity there will be the return of energy too so that I won’t be as much of a sad lump on Christmas as I was on Thanksgiving.
So, let’s look at a few bright spots from this past week of my fogginess.
First, Annie is home from college for winter break. Our home feels complete once again. And I would be lying if I didn’t say that it’s so helpful to have another set of hands to help out around here. I have to keep on guard to make sure I don’t take advantage of her willing nature.
The night after she returned home, Joe and the girls headed out to purchase our Christmas tree. This is the first year I’ve sat out that trip, but look what a great job they did without me. I love the shape and fullness of this tree. Led by Annie who currently has the most time and energy (Louisa is still in school), we’ve been decorating the house and the tree. It’s finally beginning to feel like Christmas around here. Joe still needs to set up his trains on the track, but since everything is happening slower this season I trust he will get around to it soon.
The other bright spot from the past week is that Louisa was accepted as a vocal performance student by her top choice college, the University of the Arts in Philadelphia. I’m not sure if I have ever seen that girl cry happy tears, but she made up for previous unshed tears after opening that acceptance envelope. We are thrilled for her, including the fact that she received a large scholarship, although we still need to see if the school can offer a bit more to make attending this school possible without unreasonable financial stress. The cost of college can take your breath away. But at least for now we’re focusing on the excitement of her offer.